yesterday, the blasted tubing connected to the tap for washing machine, was loose or something, it was dripping water. so, i went to the rack there, remove all the disgusting, smelly, already wet stuff and throw them aside, throw to throw, wash to wash, evacuate to evacuate.

then i took a clean, dry cloth. " oh my, the tap is dripping water." (wipe wipe) [BUSRT] the tubing just came loose and the tap was on, i was like SO DRENCHED. == so me and one of my mei. (the other was lucky, she's at some sjab outing) spend a whole seven hours clearing out those disgusting stuff that had never been touched for who knows how long. we flodded the place. its a bit like life's transformer.

lots ok lizards.( eeeeeeeeeeek, i hate lizards) and this unknown one side black and one side silver slug like creatures. cleaned those back up tiles, detergent, hand wash those stupid clothes. omgggggg, found lots of good old things though. my mum's old books, and this bird drawing of my mum and dad's name when they married, my baby cot, and those plastic balls. waaaaaaa.

don't want to repeat it again... i hit my head on the stupid tap. they thought i was bleeding and need to go see doctor cause its a metal tap. but i was like, "hello, its my head, not my fragile sister's head. i'm strong."

7 hours people... 7 whole hours.

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had an odd day today. chemistry was ok. but i think i'll have to revise everything BIG time to pass for ct. p.e. was just throwing the plastic javelin. me and justyn and qi were like, waaaaaa, made in america, claps claps. then ss was also okay la. but i think i ALSO have to revise hard hard hard to pass. got 11/12 for my essay. whoots. :D

then a maths, teacher never come so mrs toh was taking over. she is damn funny. she is like, " what are you doing?"/ "designing class tee"/ "you never ask for permission." i was thinking like is their physics class like," what are you doing?"/ "drinking water."/ "you never ask me." that would be hilarious in an odd way. :x

then went for this temasek poly talk. think jon's a poor thing. he smiles and joke and all that. but somehow i can see the strain. his heart must be breaking. poor poor jonathan. and bad bad jinghan, for adding salt to the wound.

then went home, and here i am posting. :D

thats all for now,
ta.
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like my sister will say, 'shit damn damn shit shit damn shit.'

had 2 dumb tests today. a maths and chinese. a maths, i confidently wrote "5o" on my target marks. until i tried the second qn, i changed and put 1o. totally give up. only dumb dumb qw, so sick lo, he knows how to do ehhs. (jealous)
i hate you for it quanwei. (jkjk)

then the dumbo chinese one. i do kinda quick. and i don't believe in checking for any subjects that is not maths, english, science or geog. so i just like, check a bit a bit lo. then the teacher like want to spite me like that, ask me to hand in my paper and mark right in front of my face. i was like, "mark lo." got 49/7o. just nice a2. hahas, sucks to be her. no a1 but got a2 i contented le ba?

tired tired day. great seat change today. sitting w justyn now. i think amanda likes jiaming. and she is trying to split qi and jm up. hahas.

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first, to a friend of mine whom i'll always treasure, D
really hope we could be friends all our life, but our affinity is only this short, and i can blame no one else for what happen to us. being friends w you, even for that short 2 yrs, was really something i would treasure my whole life, because the way you guide me along, teach me stuff and all that really touched me. i never understand why someone as good as you would want to be my friend and help me when i need help. but i'm glad you did. i understand that ppl will change and ppl move on. friendship is a mutual thing and i won't force you, but i'll always remember i had a friend like you.

second, to a friend i've betrayed, E
i know i shouldn't lie to you, i should have learn enough to know i shouldn't lie to a friend who trust me and is willing to teach me stuff even if everyone else doesn't like me. i really appreciated all those things you told me, i really thank you for telling me all these stuff and quizing me before last yrs eoy. what i did was wrong, i should never have lied to you. i have no excuse for myself and i just want you to forgive me, because i don't want to lose a friend just like that. i know it takes time, i know you may not even forgive me. but i really am sorry...

third, to a good good friend of mine, N
thanks for chatting w me and lending me so much of your time for the past 2 months or so. :D i really appreciated it. you've grown to be really important and i hope we will be friends for very very very long. thanks for being understanding and taking care of me and helping me whenever i need help. even though we hadn't known each other for very long, i hope we will still have a long long long future to get to know each other better. :D

fourth, to a friend who looks happy but have a emotional inside, Q
you know i've always been jealous of you. i want what you have, what you can do, and your personality. i thought you won't have any trouble. i only realised today that, you have your own troubles, you have part of you that will feel frustrated. i only want to tell you don't dumb dumb le k? if that is fate, then just let it be. you have other friends, i understand you want to make new friends, but it will take time la. jiayou. :D

fifth, to a very funny friend, who recently has a rebellious streak inside, C
never got to hear you out properly yet this year. dno what caused you to be so rebellious recently, but good for you, hahas. don't like then don't do. don't force yourself anymore. :D seems like you're having fun w your new class too. stay happy. don't let anyone control what you want to do and all those shit. be yourself. we'll be there. :D

sixth, to the bitchy friend, J
you're the best among everyone ahhs, never heard you have any trouble, just some hair complains and all that. thanks for being the 'morale' of the gang. :D always know what to say, always know what to do to make ppl cheer up. be more open this year ba. :D or not. not like you don't have enough friends already hor? friends is more about quality, not quantity. (to you too, Q) thanks for always making ppl happy. and no need thank me about the song, i know i'm good, hahas. ;D

and lastly, to the three of you,
FRIENDS ARE SUPPOSE TO BE SINCERE, IF YOU'RE NOT, STOP MAKING PPL FEEL LIKE THE EXTRA ONE. UNCALLED FOR DE OKAY?

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there are a TON of nice songs out there, just some examples:

justin bieber ft ludacris- baby
train- hey soul sister
one republic- secrets
chris daughtry- life after you

so so nice. listening to these stuff whenever i'm stressed or frustrated or doing a hw i don't like. class deco was nice, but no kudos to me. today changing seats siol. fingers crossed that i stay at the back row at my favourite seat at the corner. pleaseeeeeeeee.

feels like kindergarden kid siol. so old already still choose seats. :x still, fingers crossed, hopefully i don't stray too far away from my friends.

thats all for now,
tata
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thats all for now ba, too much to say, but no time.
ta.
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second day of school, okay la, can rmb classmates name le. not anticipating camp as much as sec 1 though. cca carnival perf kinda icky. :x if not still quite slack. none of the lessons start yet. prob can't use com much le. hahas.

school feels odd wo sec5'o9. hmmmmm.

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oh noooooo, school is starting in 6 days or so. i don't waaaaaaaaaant. D:

1)From now on , you can't tell lies, are you ready?-
==
2)Think back six months ago, were you single?-
yes.
3)What do you carry with you at all times?-
handphone. no going anywhere without handphone.
4)When you say you don't care, do you mean it?-
sometimes.
5)How are you feeling?-
squashed up.
6)Is something wrong right now?-
YES.
7)Are you mad at someone?-
myself.
8)What's on your mind?-
blank w worry.
9)Are you jealous of someone right now ?-
noppe.
10)Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?-
no.
11)Do you want to start over with anyone?-
NO.
12)Do you know anyone likes you?-
no.
13)Are you good at hiding your feelings?-
i think so. in my humble opinion, YES.
14)What are you supposed to be doing right now?-
sitting around, reading books like some guai little kid. lols. no offence.
15)True love or 1 billion bucks?-
true love.
16)Has anyone ever told you have pretty eyes?-
no, someone told me my eyes can talk though. can they?
17)Anything you would change about your life ?-
my ugly ugly looks, hahas, i'm shallow.
18)Could you cry right now?-
can, i can cry anytime unless i'm laughing.
19)Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?-
hahahahahas.
20)How often do you hold back from saying what you're thinking?-
quite often. i'd have been beaten up if i didn't.
21)Are you okay with the life you live?-
okay baaaaaaaa. look at the bright side then its okay.
22)Last person you told a secret to?-
justyn.
23)Do you believe true love can conquer anything?-
noooooo. thats dumb...
24)When was the last time you cried?-
last night.
25)How much money did you spend today?-
none, YET.
26)What are you sitting on now?-
chair???!!
27)Whats something you really want right now?-
adam lambert's album....
28)How do you feel about your hair right now?-
stupid.
29)What did you do yesterday?-
rotting ritual.
30)Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?-
yes.
31)Is there someone that makes you happy when you speak with them?-
yes.
32)When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?-
err, a week ago i think.
33)Is someone on your mind right now?-
vivien, cause i ripped the quiz from her. :x
34)Who's birthday is coming up?-
winston's.
35)Were you happy when you woke up?-
nooooo, headacheeeeee.
36)What is one emotion you are feeling right now?-
confused. is that an emotion?
37)Are you easy to get along?-
i'd like to think, yes.
38)Ever cheated on someone?-
no. :D
39)Who is the last person you send a text?-
enoch. (:

one mei go zhonghua, one mei go bowen. hmmmmm, saw my dad wrote on the whiteboard today that he received the msg. and then woke them up. umm, they have been antocipating last night. they could want to find out at the stroke of midnight de. just that it won't be so fast.

msn cannot sign in. DAMN.

ALEX CHIA

1) Do you love this person?
yea. (:
2) Is this person your enemy?
no duhhh.
3) Is this person taller than you?
i think so...




BRENT WONG

1) What do you really think of this person?
unpredictable.
2) What’s her/his favorite color?
idk...
3) Ever danced with her/him?
noppe,


CASSANDRA LEE

1) Do you like this person?
duhh, she's my bbf.
2) Where did you meet this person?
in school, sec 1.
3) How old is she/he?
14 this yr.


DARREN DAN

1) How long have you know her/him?
half a yr? or less.
2) Biggest regret?
idk. (:
3) She/he is your?
di. :D


ERVIN SNG

1) Have you met their parents?
no. (:
2) Worst thing about this person?
no worst thing. he's fun.
3) Best thing about this person?
he can beatbox! (:


FLORENCE

1) Have you ever dated this person?
no, she's a GIRL.
2) When is the next time you will see her/him?
idk, thats hard to say.
3) Do you go to school with her/him?
noppe, in the past yea, now no.


GARY TEO

1) Is she/he a good listener?
i think so...
2) Have you ever lied to this person?
nope.
3) Is this person nice?
yes ba?(:


HANS LIM

1) What year is she/he in?
err, if this mean the yr he is born in, its 1997
2) Is she/he your best friend?
noppe.
3) Ever done something illegal with this person?
naaaahhs.


IVY NG

1)What is this person's favourite food?
i dno... x
2) Where did you meet this person?
in school, during sec 1.
3) Do you trust her/him?
yea. (:


JUSTYN TOH

1) Do she/he have any siblings?
he doesn't.
2) Do you know her/his favourite song?
no, but surely gaga related. (:
3) What would you do if she/he confessed she/he liked you?
i'll freaked, pat him on the head and say, "what a joke."


KELVIN CHAN

1) How old were you when your first met?
13.
2) How did you meet this person?
at choir prac.
3) Ever danced with this person?
no... ==


LINUS TAY

1) What would you do if you had never met this person?
well, it'll be a regret. he's a gd friend and give good advices.
2) Do you like her/him?
duhh. (:
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person?
if i can even go lo.


MARISSA

1) Is this person older than you?
yep, a yr older.
2) Is this person single?
i think so.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week?
hardly ehhs, 2 or 3.


NICHOLAS HAN

1) Is this person your girlfriend/boyfriend?
hahaha, NO.
2) Have you seen this person cry?
no also.
3) Do you know this person’s middle name?
middle name? i know his full name. its han kun long.


OH JIAJIE

1) Are your greatfriends?
in the past.
2) Why do u know her/him?
school, primary 5.
3) Do you believe this person is gay?
naaaaaahs.


PEIYI SNG

1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
nope, sadly.
2) How about a whole day with her/him?
during camp?
3) Does this person have a job?
no, she's studying.


QI (technically, ziqi.)

1) Does this person drink alcohol?
i don't think so.
2) Have you seen this person dance?
hahahahas, NO.
3) Where do she/he work?
he doesn't work, he studies, at school.


REBECCA

1) Have you heard this person sing?
no...
2) Do you think this person will repost this?
no. lols.
3) Whats one thing you would change about this person?i
nonono, you cannot change a person.


SHIXUN

1) Is this person taller than you?
duhh taller.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with her/him?
kinda. he's fave emoticon is ==, so not really.
3) Do they live close to you?
opposite block.


TAN XINYI

1) Would you do anything for her/him?
depends on what, so not ANYTHING, :x
2) Have you been to her/his house?
never.
3) Is she/he a great friend?
she's a good friend.


UMIKO (technically jing jing. sorry, i ran out of names.)

1) Is this person in a relationship?
no.
2) Do you know where she/he lives?
actually, come to think of it. no. ):
3) What colour hair does this person have?
black?


VICTOR CHAN

1) Do you see this person alot?
not alot.
2) When did you meet her/him?
last yr.
3) Is this person your friend?
duhh my friend,


WEIJIE SEAH

1) Is this person quiet or loud?
depending towards who.
2) Name a friend that both of you are close too?
shit, this is hard. the closest should be brent.
3) What color eyes does this person have?
never notice, but prob black.


XINYI LEE.

1) Why are you friend with her/him?
yep, friends. (:
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with her/him ?
noooo.
3) What is one thing you would change about her/him?
like i said, you cannot change a person ma.


YONGCHONG.

1) Does this person wear make-up?
hahas, no.
2) Does this person play any instruments?
i don't think so, not sure.
3) What is her/his favourite sport?
thats even worse, i dno...


ZHANHAO LEONG.

1) Do you talk to her/him?
duhh...
2) Ever gone shopping with her/him?
no.
3) Does this person have any special skills?
he is clever. and good at di siao-ing ppl.

I confessed that in 2009, I have actually ...

( ) stayed single for the whole year
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken yea, kinda.
(x) broke someone else’s heart hmmm,
( ) had a stalker
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget there's no relationship
(x) done something you’ve regretted i regret doing stuff all the time. esp this yr though.
(x) lost faith in love i wonder why...
( ) kissed under a mistletoe
( ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem dozens when i'm bored.
( ) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog duhh...
( ) listened to music you couldn’t stand
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried when you have darlings like qi cass just and josh, you just can't help it.
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) visited a foreign country nearly every year.
(x) cut in a line of waiting people hahas. :x
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t yep. i won't do it again. thats my new resolution.
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) lost something/someone important to you in 2009
(x) broke a promise x
(x) lied unintentional. white lie.
(x) went behind your parents back to get some freedom, i had to.
(x) cried over a broken heart yea. someone else's broken heart. namely bella. hahas.
( ) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret hid.
(x) pretended to be happy occasionally.
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution i can't remember everything.
(x) met someone who changed your life :D
( ) met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life hell yea. (:
(x) sat home all day doing nothing everyday~
(x) pretended to be sick to get out of school, but only after EOY,
( ) left the country
( ) almost died
( ) given up something important to you
( ) lost something expensive
( ) learned something new about yourself
( ) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life change is an understatement.
(x) found out who your true friends were i know who they are and they'll stay that way.
( ) met great people
(x) stayed up till sunrise chatting on the phone.
(x) cried over the silliest thing i cry over the silliest thing all the time, but cass's worse.
( ) was never home on weekends
( ) got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you different schools already, guess we can't help it.
( ) had someone close to you die
( ) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food :x
( ) had a fist fight
( ) went to the beach with your best friend
( ) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick duhh.
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people esp on the second half of the year. (:

so bored that i dno what to post anymore. hahas. err, christmas is coming. seen no fairylights yet but lots of christmas trees and sales and deco. naaaaaaice. want to go swimming w friend SO MUCH today. but bo bian, no swimming suit and they going all the way to jurong.

freaking out big time about next yr. i hope i can see my comfort zone friends minus the new ppl. o4 jan 2o1o, if you don't mind, please slow down, i'm not ready for it yet ahhs.

thats all.
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finally bought my school books. thought was : finally something to do. but in the end, not quite. i was still looking through the books when i came to the add maths one. it was, one, way thick and two, the moment i opened it, i sneezed, which probably means i'm allergic.

all the books now are either thick, are wordy. now i kinda miss those textbooks in the pasts. hahas. didn't want to go to choir outing sia... in fact don't really want to go out now. i can't believe i said that though. me not wanting to go out. i'm waiting for sherlock holmes movie now. yay yay.

ytd went to ion. apparently i see no one but J saw me. the crowds is off putting lo. i forgot when is the last time i see such big crowd. pus my mum went shoppoing for HER bags and stuff first so i was just hanging around there like a hanging around thing. one word: ew. that experience is going to put me off shopping for years.

then went popular @ toa payoh (again, i went to the library the day before) to get stationary. then... thats about it lo. my shoulder ache. urghhhhhh.

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TAG REPLIES

joshua: thanks for tagging (:

victor: i know, which is an awful pity. D:

listening to jason castro song, let's just fall in love again. cute song. (:


days had been boring enough. getting school books on tuesday. ellen degenerees is the new american idol judge. :D i love her. oddly ppl i love are homosexual sia. :x tv all showing reruns. bored. i realised robbie williams is actually quite hot for someone his age. lols.

wanted to watch new moon SO MUCH. only if i can. :x so dead. at least i try to entertain myself as much as possible. be happy yenshan, life would come again. hahahahahas.
thank you enoch gor, but please don't pay for my stuff anymore. i'll feel guilty. and... i love you gor, (: thanks for being so nice to me.

don't he just look so cute. watch a vid about a week ago, adam lambert was performing at the American Music Award. he went to kiss this keyboard player. saw some close up pics just now. think is real lips to lips and not just the position effect.

but he look so cool. and he got an AMAZING voice. i mean most of the time you see him you see lots of black eyeliner and eyeshadow and sometimes lip gloss. but thats like part of his "package". it makes him so much more distinguishable. you can tell its adam lambert from far away.

and his voice is strong, unique and just really himself. like he and kris allen both sang "no boundaries" but you can so tell which is which. cause adam lambert's song got a lot of really high notes and "shouting" which makes it difficult to sing.

he's like a male version of lady gaga. unique, stands out and easily distinguishable. no one beats adam lambert.
i just want to say, i'm still thinking of you every day last thing before i sleep. i love you alot. its... unmeasurable. i just want the old you back. the old you who is willing to joke with me and have some fun. i miss that nicholas. i love you.